I’m so unprepaired for this. I don’t want to leave, obviously. Since I’ve been here for so long I’ve gotten so used to living with him. It’s unfair. It almost feels like I’m not really leaving and like I still have all the time in the world with him. I wish I did. 

Lately we haven’t been able to sleep in the same bed at night because I’ve been getting really sick and sleeping is difficult because his bed is so small… I hate when he has to sleep in the chair. Hopefully these next five days I feel a lot better and we can sleep and cuddle together. 

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I don’t want to go…